muh-fake-diary

this was the worse CNY i ever had.. so bad it hurts =(

could not spill more details here.. would rather scribble it down in my personal diary

because i would not want my family or you to read it =P

speechless

i'm workin alone in the office now

*sob*

i was supposed to be on sick leave but............

i'm hungry, tired, busy & sick!!!

p/s : what a "great" start for me this CNY.. in this ox year, i will work as hard as the ox *sigh*

New Moon

"Isabella Swan?" He looked up at me through his impossibly long lashes, his golden eyes soft but, somehow, still scorching. "I promise to love you forever - every single day of forever. Will you marry me?"

from New Moon by Stephenie Meyer

readin romance novels were never been my cup of tea.. i can read everythin from historical to suspense to chic lit, basically, everythin except for romance.. but after reading the 3rd novels by Stephenie Meyer, i finally understand why girls love to read romance novels so much.. that's because fairy tales don't exist in real life.. so should i say are we all living in denial? or we plant hopes one fine day the Mr Perfect will turns up?

buh bye rat here comes the ox

CNY is just days away

my brother & sis in law already back from China

for this CNY, i splurge on so much stuff

from new pair of Levi's jeans to new hair cut & color to manicure

i bought myself a brand new handphone too

and impulsively i nearly bought a designer handbag *slaps myself to wake up*

i should stop using all kinds of excuses to shop anymore

in case i'm too busy to blog somemore

i wish everyone a very happy moo moo year

*****

*screams out loud*

my papa called me tis afternoon, informing me that i was being summoned for beating the traffic lights at Sepang

try guess how many summon i got

5. lima. 五. go

fark fark fark

beating traffic lights cannot be compounded la

my papa even asked me do i want to pay today

HELL NO!

RM1500 neh

my papa has "good" sense of humour sometimes

what a shitty CNY

2008/2009

some random updates

sorry, don't kill me for being too busy to blog it last year

13th December 2008

1 day trip with muh buddies @ Genting Highlands

junn, momo & me upon arriving Genting Highlands

@ first world

muh very close buddies

i already known them for 7 years *omfg*

we were college mates & classmates back then

momo + pei san

junn, my ex-classmate, happens to be my colleague now as well

muh bestie since primary school

i've known her for more than 18 years!~!

isn't it crazy?

@ starbucks

junn belanja starbucks cakes because he won $$$

i gambled 2-3 hours only won 5 bucks *gila babi*


sweet corn

we have nothin better to do so we went camwhore with those luxurious cars

it's nice to be with 38 friends once in a while

LOL

25th December 2008

steamboat dinner with my jimuis

see min yee + yap may kuan + thoo pei san

that's how our teachers called us last time

our exchange gifts

i was so happy i have 2 bagful of famous amos cookies *yums*

i supposed to pick Roxy photo albums but i was too tempted with the cookies

tam chiak me

10th January 2009

me @ some strangers' wedding dinner

i really wish my jimuis quickly get married

so i can be their beautiful bridemaid

this year can, jimuis?

cny

i'm really tiredddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd.. the workload just would not stops no matter how many hours i stay back.. i arrive to work the earliest but finish work the last.. my boyfriend complainin, parents complainin, friends also complainin because i always end up FFK.. all because of my workload! cannot even go shoppin for CNY *tears up*

i really need a bed, campin gear & supplies, osim massage chair, extra pair of hands and plenty of time for me to work *sigh* i even cancel my CNY leaves and decided to come back to work to help out the team.. such a nice SME right??????

btw, i'm not feeling a thing nor enthusiastic bout this year CNY.. maybe because i have no off days or maybe i'm penniless.. last year i spent > RM1000 for my families - extra pocket money/bonuses for my parents, my godmum, my aunt, those long lost relatives, etc.. damn sakit hati man! if i receive bonuses for 10 months, i would not feel that bad but the reality is cruel.. when i grow up, CNY does not seems to be that enjoyable anymore.. it's so nice to be a kid rather than a grown up

*****

do you know that Rihanna is comin to town?

Rihanna Live in Kuala Lumpur 2009

should i go? shouldn't i go?

anyone mind to give me free tickets???

any lubang? any sponsors?

work work work

i cannot imagine that i'd break my record in the history of my working life

i overslept yesterday and headed to work *cough* 3 hours late *cough* can i blame it on monday blues? or should i blame it on Chelsea losing 3-0 to MU on Sunday night?

it's not entirely my fault *tryin to blame it on other factors* i started the graveyard shift since last week.. start workin at 5am whereas everyone should be sound asleep at home.. so damn tough and sanfu for me to wake up in the morning

i was trying my best to get used to wakin up at 4am, rushin to work before 5am *but usually i failed miserably* then work work work for more than 12 hours - the cycle repeats till i pass out

even now i still staying in the office since 5am this morning *wtf*

@%^$^%#*!@#%^

i will be just okay

i'm binging on pineapple tarts hesitating whether i should blog bout this or not..
better i wrote it here than say it out loud again..
the damages are there and if i mention bout it again, we end up fighting again & again..
i guess the topic is too sensitive to talk about..
it's like out of sudden we have so much misunderstanding, dramas and miseries..
i really dunno what should i do besides forgetting it..
i dunno whether you understand how i'm feeling right now or not..
i wish you were in my shoes for a minute to feel my pain..
it doesn't matters anymore because you exclaimed it was tough for you too..
what can i say more? what can i whine more?
after all the empty promises and lies..
whenever i think bout it i will start pointing fingers at you..
blaming you for not apologizing, not trying to do something and till now you still broke the promises you have made to me..
i should really believe you are doing something for me? or i should think you really care for me?
maybe you really think i was doing unnecessary struggles..
i should not be so irrational and so stubborn..
i should not think way too much..
i should not be so emotional bout it..
i should just treat it as a jokes and laugh bout it?
just because i always so cool towards everything doesn't makes me feel okay this time..
i'm hurt & heartbroken.. who can understands? who can i talk to?
i know what's past is past.. i could not do anything bout it..
all i want are just a simple sorry, little bit more reassurance and meant it when you promise me something..
let's hope i will recover and time could heals the wound..

Ne-Yo's Mad

dedicating this latest single from Ne Yo's brand new album to couples that are constantly fighting or anyone that loves this song, like me, for instance

the song really touches my heart, it was so damn meaningful!

enjoy the song and stop fighting~!!!!

Oh oh oh, oh oh oh...
Oh oh oh...

She's starin' at me,
I'm sittin', wonderin' what she's thinkin'.
Mmmmm
Nobody's talkin',
'Cause talkin' just turns into screamin'.
Ohhh...
And now is I'm yellin' over her,
She's yellin' over me.
All that that means
Is neither of us is listening,
(And what's even worse).
That we don't even remember why were fighting.

So both of us are mad for...

Nothin'
(Fighting for).
Nothin'
(Crying for).
Nothin'
(Whoahhh).
But we won't let it go for
Nothin'
(No not for)
Nothin'.
This should be nothin' to a love like what we got.
Ohhh, baby...

I know sometimes
It's gonna rain...
But baby, can we make up now
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
(Cant sleep through the pain).

Girl, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me).
No, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me)
Ohhh no no no...

And it gets me upset, girl
When you're constantly accusing.
(Askin' questions like you've already known).
We're fighting this war, baby
When both of us are losing.
(This ain't the way that love is supposed to go).

Whoaaaaaaaaa...
[What happened to workin' it out].
We've falled into this place
Where you ain't backin' down
And I ain't backin' down.

So what the hell do we do now...
It's all for...

Nothin'
(Fighting for).
Nothin'
(Crying for).
Nothin'
(Whoahhh).
But we won't let it go for
Nothin'
(No not for)
Nothin'.
This should be nothin' to a love like what we got.
Ohhh, baby...

I know sometimes
It's gonna rain...
But baby, can we make up now
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
(Cant sleep through the pain).

Girl, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me).
No, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me)
Ohhh no no no...

Oh baby this love ain't gonna be perfect,
(Perfect, perfect, oh oh).
And just how good it's gonna be.
We can't fuss and we can't fight
Long as everything alright between us
Before we go to sleep.

Baby, we're gonna be happy.

I know sometimes
It's gonna rain...
But baby, can we make up now
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
(Cant sleep through the pain).

Girl, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me).
No, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me)
Ohhh no no no...

new zealand again

it took me forever to finish my post on my trip to NZ

i have > 500 photos altogether

nevertheless the more photos i posted the more i miss NZ

seriously it was one damn good country

caution: photo overload

i love this photo the MOST!!!

awesome Auckland city

snapped by me in the moving bus *supercilious smile*

muh beautiful tour guides!!!

without them, my trip to NZ was just plain boring

*thankiu*

the dusk

snapped from my hotel's balcony

me waking up at 2am everyday for work because of the time difference

New Zealand's time is 5 hours ahead of Malaysia's time

do you know how did i celebrate my birthday in Auckland?

i had the most romantic candlelight dinner in a yatch called Mon Ami

how i wish *LOL*

i actually had a splendid dinner with my girl friend @ Viaduct Harbour

award winning gelatos *yums*

2 days & 1 night trip to Rotorua

and i found..

gazillion of TULIP!!!

it comes in pink, yellow, red, white, etc

another attraction of Rotorua is the geothermal activity such as Geysers, bubbling mud pools, hot thermal springs, etc

Rotorua nicknamed as Sulphur City which basically has the pungent smells of rotten egg

Hell's Gate sulphur spa

when i was soaking in the sulphur pool, i totally forgotten my Tiffany & Co's necklace was made from silver and it would be tarnished by the sulphur

=(

i'm so dumb

my necklace turned into ash black

gosh, i dunno how i can pass Chemistry exams in SPM

went to Polynesian Spa

soak in acidic and alkaline water all day

the team in Auckland which had been made redundant

i was there to transfer the knowledge to Malaysia

i guess that's the pain on working in an outsourcing company

a month of transition project has comes to an end

i was glad that i was being picked for the transition project

despite that i need to sign the bond letter and start serving my bond once i get back to Malaysia

i think it was all worth it!

awwww fireworks

when the clock strikes 12:00, i ran out of my apartment to search for new year fireworks

it was so beautiful and romantic

how i wish you were here

can i make a new year wish as well? i hope my future husband prepares fireworks for me when he kneels down and propose to me.. i know i'm asking too much.. i know a 30 minutes displays of firework cost more than any diamond ring.. but who doesn't love fireworks?