i will be just okay

i'm binging on pineapple tarts hesitating whether i should blog bout this or not..
better i wrote it here than say it out loud again..
the damages are there and if i mention bout it again, we end up fighting again & again..
i guess the topic is too sensitive to talk about..
it's like out of sudden we have so much misunderstanding, dramas and miseries..
i really dunno what should i do besides forgetting it..
i dunno whether you understand how i'm feeling right now or not..
i wish you were in my shoes for a minute to feel my pain..
it doesn't matters anymore because you exclaimed it was tough for you too..
what can i say more? what can i whine more?
after all the empty promises and lies..
whenever i think bout it i will start pointing fingers at you..
blaming you for not apologizing, not trying to do something and till now you still broke the promises you have made to me..
i should really believe you are doing something for me? or i should think you really care for me?
maybe you really think i was doing unnecessary struggles..
i should not be so irrational and so stubborn..
i should not think way too much..
i should not be so emotional bout it..
i should just treat it as a jokes and laugh bout it?
just because i always so cool towards everything doesn't makes me feel okay this time..
i'm hurt & heartbroken.. who can understands? who can i talk to?
i know what's past is past.. i could not do anything bout it..
all i want are just a simple sorry, little bit more reassurance and meant it when you promise me something..
let's hope i will recover and time could heals the wound..