f**ked up

i'm constantly frowning and sighing

i feel so troubled and uneasy

i feel like my life is inherently uncontrollable

my job, my family, my love and my friends and everything

why i need to care bout everyone's feeling?

why can't i be a lil selfish?

why can't i treat myself the best?

why i need to pay attention to all those f**king hearsay?

why can't i end all the miseries?

why i don't have the answer to my life?

what is life after all?

if u see a whole thing - it seems that it's always beautiful. planets, lives.. but close up the world's all dirt and rocks.. n day to day, life's a hard job, u get tired, u lose the pattern

life is like an onion; u peel it off one layer at a time, and sometimes u weep